"You have to let them chase each other or they'll never learn!"

Do you ever sit there and just feel amazed that this is your life and you actually are living it? I did for a while earlier. It wasn't a good amazed. My life is down right now. Ya know, I hate saying I'm down. The appropriate color is blue, but I don't feel very blue. Blue is relaxed for me. I feel... Orange. Icky and hectic.


These recent days have felt very orange today. Good grief, it's taking forever to type. I need to trim my nails. I keep pressing the wrong letter. So my sisters(?) were up at the crack of dawn today. Ha! They were up before dawn since it's still not light outside. Anyway, they were up and singing constantly. I had the urge to throw a shoe at the wall to shut them up, but it wouldn't have worked and that made me sad. Sometimes I do that to quiet down my cousin.


I think I wonder about things too much. Everything winds up crashing in on me and I think I'll drown.


I had an extremely odd dream last night. Scott and I lived in this very odd city. There were mansions, giant supermarkets, and a huge mall. The mall was in the middle and all the rodes were like bicycle spokes coming off of it. Well we got separated at the mall so Scott went to his friend's house who lifed like, 6 streets away from the street we had to take to get home so I was really sad. It started raining and since the malls entire roof was missing, they closed the mall and I had to walk home. It was weird because at one house I saw kids playing some strange apple game. I thought they were crazy. So I get home and it was just freaky. Turns out, from the outside, our home looks like a cardboard box. So I crawled in, it was really apartments I guess. All the walls were cardboard still and all the homes were little cubbies with a blanket hung in the front for a door. So, I went to crawl into our home (oh yeah, the hallways were really little so you had to crawl in them) and noticed we had a new neighbor. They were dogs. So the giant dog walks away and I notice that the medium but scary looking one starts trying to eat the tiny one. I was yelling at it and telling it not to when the giant one came back and jumped on me. He growled and said, "You have to let them chase each other or they'll never learn!" So of course I was really scared and crawled into the apartment/cubby and realized we actually had a really nice apartment. I could stand up and everything was just really nice in there. The only thing was we didn't have windows.


This is Eeka Eyes, signing off.